Someone once asked me if I’m happy. And it kind of stung. I have made drastic decisions this year of cutting out people from my life and finally pursuing a childhood dream of going to law school. Life could have been so different otherwise.
So when I fail quizzes or miss out on events, of course, it is difficult. There are times I would rather be on social media than reading a case. (Obviously, this blog post is a product of procrastination.) I often find myself questioning why I am doing this – every night, at 9pm on my way home after a really long day.
My weekdays are full of early mornings, late nights, cases and discussions I don’t understand, questions I cannot answer and papers I have no idea how to write.
But it is also full of new learnings, really smart people, and a close up of this country’s history and culture.
I only have Sundays to see my friends and take care of myself every week. I have 24 hours every week to recuperate from the stress and to somehow remind everyone in my life that I love them and that I am grateful for all the support I am given. But do I feel like I’m living for that one day only? No, I don’t. My Mondays to Saturdays are quite amazing in their own way. No more beach trips or spa dates on whim but hey, what a small price to pay.
Do I miss my old life? To be honest, no, I don’t. The fast-paced, on-the-go, event-filled life was a blast but it got tiring too fast. Right now, I’m living the dream. My dream. And I have to remind myself that every day so I know that I have to work hard to not lose this.
Back in January, I couldn’t imagine myself going to law school, much less UP Law. I have been told repeatedly that I am not smart enough for this. But I passed that exam. I am here, and I want to make it last.
So am I happy? Yes. Yes, I am. Really really stressed but happy. 🙌🏻💘